To Sir, with LOVE.

             One of the attitude i most hate about myself is hiding my real feelings. Especially when it comes to someone of the opposite sex. I met this man approximately 2 years ago, he's quite older than I and when I first saw him, I thought he's so boring, without a sense of fashion, UGLY. I was wrong. By the way, my name is Roxanne Lewis. A junior high school student from the bay town. Okay, this man I was talking about was a fresh college grad substitute teacher from a prestigious school in our town. 

                  In the middle of the school year, the Glee club opened its way to new members and because I love performing, I auditioned for it. And it so happened that the person-in-charge of the group was the new teacher. By the way his name was Steven Anderson. At the back of my mind I thought, "Oh my God this arrogant-looking guy? I'm gonna die." Well then, I don't care about him anyway, he's not even the reason why I was there. And so, I auditioned and luckily became part of the Glee club. 

                   My first few weeks as a member became so good. I introduced myself to them formally and each of them as I look in they're eyes were so glad and makes me feel overwhelmed as they welcomed me in the club. Being the club's new member, they threw up a small party for me. We ate some pizza while having a good conversation with them. Tell some stories, had fun, etc. And guess what I've found, it was all the idea of our club adviser, Mr. Anderson! "How sweet of him..." I thought. And that begins a good relationship between my teacher and the group.

                  As time goes on, the Glee club seems to be like a huge family. We care and love for each other, and in every time we were in a school competition, the after-show celebration/hang-outs follows. Every time we go out, Mr. Anderson always contributes a big share. We'll watch movies, go to a party, had a sing-a-long night, he'll tell stories as we'll tell ours. Then I came to realize that I liked him. But as a student, I know my limitations. He's my teacher and we can't be together as lovers. I know what kind of shame would it give us, and so I just kept my feelings. And in order to avoid myself to drown with these feelings for him, I stayed away from him. The usual became unusual. Our usual conversation was lessened. I stay away when he's around.

              I hate to do this but I have to. Even though it hurts. He has his own life as well as mine. I decided to get out from the club not telling anyone about my feelings. I just told them that I lost my passion in performing for some unexplainable reasons. It's the right thing to do, to stay away from him. But since then, every minute, every second of my day, it was him I was thinking of. It even affected my study habits. I can't sleep at night because every time I close my eyes, it was his face, his eyes, and his smile I always see. 

           Have I did the right thing? Was it really love I'm really feeling? I don't know, but I have to... LET GO.

HOW CAN I SAY THANKS? :)

Teaching is one of the toughest, challenging yet the most fulfilling and worth working profession in the world.  The attitude of the students these times might be far different from the generation of the students before but I salute my teachers 'coz they're never giving up just to bring out the best in us. And to give credits to what they instill in us, this blog is for them! :)

Mr. Angelito O. Victor

          The coolest TLE teacher I'd ever had. Earn points, win a gift prize! Plus bookmarks! I'm gonna miss you sir! Thanks for being such a good teacher and for making things light for us. For the corny jokes that made us laugh out loud! And for allowing us to do our other homeworks when we have free time! ;)  God bless you always and take care! :)

Mrs. Erlinda C. Jolloso

             I must admit, I thought you were so strict. But I was wrong when I finally understand why you seemed so terror or should I say disciplinarian during our class. That's because you want us to learn and cope up with every lessons that you teach.  Thank you ma'am for always giving the best for us and I'm so sorry for the times I failed in your class. May God continually bless you with good health and long life! [Avoid too much sweets! ;)] Love you, ma'am! :)

Mrs. Eleanor J. Cruz

           To the most beautiful and kikay Filipino teacher in JSMJC campus, ma'am Leah! I will surely miss you lalo na po yung pang-aasar niyo. haha! Thank you ma'am for always giving us the motivation during our class discussion. Sorry if there are times I've disappointed you with my scores in exams and quizzes... I promise to o better in college! God bless you ma'am! :)

Mr. Nelson C. Cruz

            Of all my math teachers, you're the only one who proved that NOT all Math teachers are terror. ;] Before, I used to hate math because I knew from the start it was my weakness. That thought was changed when you became my teacher. Di niyo kasi ako sinukuan turuan. Hehe. I may always fail in this subject but I know there'll come a time that I'll be better with it! T.a.E nga po eh 'di ba? :)) Thank you, sir! God bless you always! :) 

Mrs. Nelita C. Candelaria

         Tita Nelia/Tita Candy! Thanks for all the stories you've shared with us that made me realize the importance of being a person with a noble character and Christ-centered living! May God continually bless you and your ministry! :)

Ms. Jocelyn Z. Rondilla 

        Ma'am Joy! Thanks for making our English class lively, fun, and exciting! Of all the English teachers I've met, you're the one that I'll never forget. Thanks for taking time to listen with our thoughts, the way we feel about this, and that. For caring as if you're our mother, giving advices like a friend, and riding-in with our insanity. haha. hep hep hep.. You still owe me a price for being the spelling bee champion! ;) I'll never forget the scent of your perfume! Malayo pa lang, amoy na amoy na, at alam nang ikaw po yun! hehe! God bless you always, ma'am! Hope you find you're one true love. :] 

Ms. Rizza Esguerra

       To our new JSMJC Chorale conductress' Ms. Rizza, I just wanted to say thank you for keeping yourself patient whenever we're so unattentive and stubborn during our rehearsals. Sorry for being like that. Sorry for the times that we would compare you to our former conductress. I know it'll take time for the remaining choir members to adjust in your system of teaching but sure, God will make a way for them to understand you more and love you as much as we loved Prof. Fuentes.  Thanks for those unforgettable memories with you, those wacky moments when we're vocalizing and rehearsing. May God bless you more with love, patience, wisdom, and strength! :)

Prof. Edith C. Fuentes

          Ma'am Edith! I thank God for giving me a chance to be one of your voice talent. Imagine, a former MADZ singer would be my choir conductress for almost 2years? :) It might be a short time but it's an honor for me to fulfill my dreams as a member of the performing arts group of the school with you. I never regret my choice of leaving my first organ to chorale. Because of you, I learned to sing and memorize a song in just a few minutes. I've learned the importance of music. Thanks for letting me know the versatility of my voice when you've transferred me from Soprano to Alto. You made me love music and singing soo much! As much as I want to be a pro-musician! :) No words can express how grateful I am to you! I hope we could sing more songs together! God bless you ma'am! :)

Mr. Roel P. Libramonte

           The Mr. Multi-Talented man. ;] Thanks for being like our big bro in the Advocate. I must admit, I never looked at you as a teacher 'cause your cool and was just like playing with and taking care of your little brothers and sisters (you've not been my English teacher though, how I wish). hehe! I can see my ate Laura in you. Through your endless stories that made me laugh, learn, and cope up with. Thanks for your endless treats, sa movie, pagkaen, kwento, at jamming! :)) Kung alam ko lang na bang saya pala sa Advo, sana noon pa lang sumali na ko. hehe. thanks po sa trust, for making me one of its Managing Editors. Sorry po if there are times that I've bothered you with my dramas in FB/GMs. haha! I hope we could still have more jamming, eating, and gala times together with the group though we've already graduated. God bless you more! Go, GLEE club! hahaha! ;]]

Dr. Reynaldo D. Faustino

           Sir RDF! Thanks for everything! For being one of your daughters in the class. I'll never forget all your sermons and stories on how to be and how to become. Sorry for the times that I failed you. I may not be as good as my other classmates, but in my heart I know that God has something better for me in college. I'll make it sure that I'll make you proud and will always carry all the lessons I've learned from you. Again, thank you so much sir! God bless you more with love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, gentleness, and self-control! Love you, dad! :)

And to all my teachers from 1st-3rd year, thank you so much for being part of my journey in my high school years. None of your efforts would be wasted and they will be all kept in my heart and life. As I take another step higher, you'll be in my heart forever! God bless you!

To The Sumulong Advocate and The JSMJC Chorale family, 

       Thanks for the memories, the lessons learned, and unforgettable experiences! I'll surely miss you all! :")

The Sumulong Advocate

The JSMJC Chorale

"When all is said and done, to thee I shall return."

LOVE ko 'to. :)

Only days are left, then it's over for the once that I loved and will always love. I wasn't able to prepare any special thing for this day so I thought of something unique like making this blog. To all my classmates, teachers, and Alma Mater, Juan Sumulong Memorial Junior College '11; this one's for you! :)

Bryan Ambulo
        "Mimimimimi-mister, mister Ambulo" as we always call him. Hehe! I just wanna thank you, Bryan for being part of my highschool life. At first I find it hard to talk/hang around with yo, but then I realized that you're cool and fun to be with. ;)) May God bless you among your chosen career in life! 

Sharlene Mae Anday
    Xarl! Never thought that we've been this close. Thank you for the friendship and for accepting who I am. Sorry for all those things I've done that made you cry. I miss you and I hope you grow in Christ and know Him more! :)

Derek Aquino

           Hi dork! :P I'm glad that you're showing more of you na this school year. haha! Congratulations and thanks for being part of my highschool life! God bless you more! :)

Ariel Aquino
    Pareng Ariel! :D Thanks for being part of my life in almost 7years. haha,nakakasawa ba? :D May you always be blessed and seek God always! Congratulations and good luck to your chosen career! :)

Deanne Clare and Dianne Christiane Barlaan
      hiya twin sistahs! Isang dekada na tayong magkakasama at magkakilala! Thank you soo much for being part of  much of my life. hehehe! I wish you both success and more of Jesus in your life! I'll never forget you! keep dancing! :)

Jean Bicera
      Madame president! haha ! thank you for keeping the choir going, i appreciate your efforts! Sorry for the times I've talked behind your back, let us grow up and never give up! :) Thanks for the friendship, TART! :) I'll surely miss you! Don't cry, huh? :D God bless you more!

Franchesca Cabral
     Baker Queen Chesca! yihiii! Thank you soo much for being part of my highschool life. In those four years we've been together, nung 3rd year and 4th year pa lang kita nakilala ng wagas! ;] Thank you soo much for your love and care, and for the foods you share. :p God bless you more and more! :)

Jeneth Cadelina

        JeneTTh! you're one of the most mysterious girl in class. I can never know when you're serious or not. haha! Thanks for those good memories we've shared! God bless you always!

Gerwill Cruz
     Gerger! Waa.. I'm gonna miss your humor! haha! We may not be this close but I just wanna thank you for being with me sa mga galaan at party party! Mami-miss ko ang canton at movie marathons natin with the party family! :) God bless you more!

Jana Laurys Cruz

     BAKLANG BADING! hahaha! :p SORRY huh... I won't expect everything to turn the same again but I'd like to thank you for being part of my BAKLA-LIFE and for all those times we've stuck together! I won't miss you 'cause I know I'll see you once in a while. ;] See you sundays! 

Ron Michael Cruz
    RonTuRon! Thanks for being the vine, the trunk, and the branches of our highs chool life. [kidding.LOL] May you be more blessed and successful in your choosen career in life. You'll always be our MVP! [Most VOLLEYBALL Player!]

Arleen Dadizon
    Len-len! I'll miss you! Thank you soo much for the friendship. I'll never forget your smile and the way you throw your corby jokes and punch lines.haha! You deserve what you've got! Stay happy and blessed! :)

Kim Nina Dolores
    Ate Kim! Thank you soo much for opening my door to the world. Ikaw lang ang nagbigay-pansin sa katahimikan ko noon at kaingayan ko ngayon.di na ko magagalit ulit, promise! :)) I'm soo thankful to god for making such person as you who cares not only for themselves but for others. I won't forget you! Thank you sooo much! God bless you always!

Ralph John Kelly Ducay
    ralfyyy! Thanks for the times we've been together, and for being part of my Cantoneros family! God bless you always and I know God will give you the best you deserve! keep smiling! :)

Czarina Joy Esguerra
     Chijoy! Thanks for the friendship, I'll miss the way you laugh. hehe! You know what, you were my first friend in first year. Thanks to the JSMJC Drum and Lyre. hehe! Wishing you all the best in life! God bless! :)

Samantha Iris Espardinez

   Hi sam! Thanks for those wacky moments with you! Keep smiling and always be yourself! God bless you and congratulations! :)

Anne Jenina Espenida 
     Anne, thanks for being part of my highschool life. i really admired the way you dance and wishes na sana ako rin. haha! Wishing you success in your chosen career ! God bless and congratulations!

Rupert Rey Flores
    rupit! Maraming nag-aakalang kamag-anak kita pero ngayon, lilinawin ko na... We're not related. [yehey! pwede pa.] Joke lang! hahaha! Thanks for the friendship, akala ko hindi tayo magiging close eh, salamat sa Party family, choir, at advo, naging close tayo. haha ! God bless you and congratulations! :)

Hazel Garalde
    Hazel! Thanks for being part of my highschool life! Congrats and good luck to your chosen career in life. Stay blessed and be a blessing! :)

Alexzandra Gullon
    Alex! you know how much i love you as well as PM. As we leave the school, may we also leave what broke our hearts. Forgive and forget. live love laugh ! I'm gonna miss you! Thanks for the memories and may you become maturer in knowing Christ and facing life. Stop thinking the negative way, huh? God bless you!

Princess Pauline Habla
    BABOY! Thanks for those special moments, those times that we ate more, haha! Sorry for the things that made me hurt or offended you in the past. I hope all is well with us before we leave the school. I'll miss you, BABOY! Good luck and may You have Christ in your heart always!

Karla Elaine Lacson
    Karlaboy! woah.. you don't know how much I'll miss you! You know my thoughts as well as I know yours... waaah... Thank you soo much for listening and understanding me. I love you! I hope and pray that you'll become successful in your chosen career. God bless you more and don't forget to call me when you need a friend! :)

Eloisa May Lanuza

     Ewan ko kung mami-miss kita kasi ikaw parin kasama ko sa college, baka maging bestfriends pa tayp. hahaha! Still, I wanna thank you for being part of my highschool life. ayiee.. God bless you and congrats!

Sarah Leonardo
    Sarai! Congratulations! Graduate na tayo! :p Thanks for the good camaraderie. Di agad ako nailang sayo nung third year, thanks for helping me cope up with accounting! hehe! :) Good luck to your chosen career in life and God bless! :)

Lyka Kim Leyson
    Lykie! waa.. I will surely miss our chair-ee-o-ke during our free time. Thanks for the friendship, crush! hahaha! Congratulations to you and God bless you more... hephephep... Stop worrying, remember W.W.J.D? :) Love you!

Alfons Macabuhay
    Ponsi! Ang korni mo! hahaha! I'll miss you! Hope you be more blessed and successful in the near future! Thank you so much for the friendship. Stay happy! :)

Lawrenz Madlangbayan
      Lawlaw! Thank you soo much for your patience... kailan ka magagalit? hoho! just kidding! I'm soo sorry for always teasing you. hihihi... Hope you be successful in your college life and may God bless you in your chosen path in life! Stay good, keep smiling! :))
     

Magno Ardenia
    Migz! waa... Thank you so much for being such a good friend lalo na nung mga Advo days.. haha. never thought we'd be soo close! wew. Sorry, di ko parin nalalapatan ng tono yung ginawa mo. I'll miss our jamming moments, movie watching, gala mode, etc. Yung installment ng Harry Potter ha, panuorin natin! :P
God bless you always and kongratchuleyshens! ;]

Jhona Grace Manalo
    Jhonagon! my four-year seat mate! i love you and I'l miss you! Thanks for being with me during my highs and lows. You'll always have a portion in my heart! God bless you more and i wish you the best of luck! :)

Czarina Mangaoang
    Czarie! Salamat sa pagbugbog saken huh, eto medyo namayat lang naman ako. LOL! Thanks for the memories, I'll miss you! God bless you more! :)

Klydine Gecyrille Mercado
    hey Klyde! I'll miss you! Thanks for the memories and for the good camaraderie! :) God bless you more and good luck to your chosen career in life! :)

Jessamine Naval
    Jes! Congratulations and thank you for being part of my highschool life! Wishing you all the best of luck and success in life! God bless you! :)

Mary Rose Navarro
   Mewi! Thank you soo much for being such a great friend and classmate! I'll miss your wacky shots! hehe! God bless you more and may all your dreams come true! Congratulations!

Nicole Sanvictores
    Rakistang Dreamgirl! :)) Thank you soo much for being a good friend and colleague sa Advo. :) I'll miss our bonding moments lalo na yung pagtambay natin sa SM  at ang pagnuod natin ng sine... Aww... God bless you more and good luck to your college life! :)

Angelou Obrero
   MAMU!!! I'll miss you sooo bad! thanks for embracing my whole being, for understanding what I feel... for caring like a mom.. :) I'll surely miss you! I hope we stay connected! God bless you more and I love you! :)

Mary Plet Paguio
   MP!! Oh yan ha, di na Mary Plet. :p Thank you soo much for the good friendship ! Stay kikay as you are yet never forget to be a GOOD girl always. :) God bless you more! :)

Kim A Joung

    Hello! Congratulations! Thank you for being part of my high school life, I may be rude to you sometimes but that doesn't mean I'm bad. ^^ May you know Christ with all your soul, heart, and mind. God bless you and good luck to your college life! :)

Lance Christian Punay
    I'm glad that you're making friends with most of us now. haha! Blooming ka na! Thanks for being part of my highschool life! good luck and God bless to your chosen career in life! :)

Carizza Ann Rondilla

     Izza! Thanks for being such a friend. Naalala ko tuloy nung 2nd year, lagi tayong magkasabay pagpunta ng canteen. Hehehe! Congratulations and God bless you! :)

Neil Marco Rosario
    Idol! Thank you soo much for being part of my highschool life! I'll be missing your punch lines and the way you deliver your parts in our classroom role playing! the best! I'm a great fan of your art works! Viva la clasico musica! :)) God bless you more and goodluck!

John Lester Sacdalan
    Cousin, hapitoots! waaa... i'll miss you soo BIG! :) Thanks for being a good friend and companion sa mga galaan at lamunan. hihihi! God bless you and good luck to your college life! :)

Lex Justine San Jose
    palex! I'm glad you're doing good! Thank God for your second life! Thanks for being a good friend, choirmate, and co-advo staff. :) God bless you more and good luck! :)

Kathryn Maymer Santos
    Kathryn! thanks for being part of my highschool life! God bless you more and more to your chosen career in life! I'll miss you! :)

Elaine Louise Tangonan
    Polaitots! I'll miss you coffee ko! :)) Wag nang maka-kape, okey? :p I'll miss you! thanks for being such a great friend! God bless you always! I love you! :)

Veniz Tuazon
    Thanks for being part of my highschool life, for your compliments... hehe God bless you more and goodluck to your college career.

Mark Ezekiel Vergara
     KULOT! haha! thank you soo much for being part of my high school life! Sorry kung lagi kitang inaasar. Ang saya kaya, TRY MO! hehe! God bless you more and goodluck sa college! :)

Chris Angelo Villanueva
   Hoy CHRIS! Thank God at nagsasalita ka na. haha! Thanks for being such a good friend! You're soo tall na, di kita ma-reach! LOL. Sa pamilya niyo ni Jeneth, palaguin at alagaan mo yun! :p Thanks for the memories! God bless you and good luck to your college life! :)

John Paul Villen
    JP! Thanks for being such a good friend kahit minsan nakakainis ka dahil sa mga kaartehan mo. :p haha! Sorry if I did hurt you. Wishing you the best in life! Congrats and GOD BLESS YOU MORE! :)

Alexandra Zapanta

    Thanks for being part of my highschool life and for the moment we've shared being IN LOVE! I hope to know you more though we may not barely see each other. God bless you and good luck to your college! :)

***TO BE CONTINUED.